Journaling, or how to hoard emotions and experiences

 

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It took me this long to learn that each time you access a memory, you alter it a little. That's why over time and with enough accessing, you wind up deleting the bad parts of a relationship and only keep the good (or vice versa). In times before Social media and even TV, people used to spedn some time writing down their actions during their day, emotions, what happened to them. Tried a few times as a kid, nobody explained that emotions and human interactions were more important than homework subjects or what I ate so it didn't last. 

   I would have loved today to look back on those and try to understand why some of the things I do today are shaped by what I did or felt back then; I'm lucky enough that some conversations from an important part of my life (formative, one might say) and I'm only now realisng some stuff by re re reading them. Journaling would be a way to store for tommrow what you felt and did today, maybe you 'll be calmer or wiser or more educated then and will be abel to better understand what happened now. 

Or, maybe , like those thousand or so holiday photos you take with your phone, you'll never look again at your journal. Maybe that's why I blog. If I don't see these thoughts ever again, it may bring some value to a stranger. 

  Or maybe the memory changes because we change when we remember it , something like our eyesight deteriorating even if the Monalisa is still the same in front of us. And maybe that's enough; the past has shaped us and hasn't changed so that we can change and evolve for the better. 

  Blog, journal, or don't, but may you find happiness in what you do chose to do!